I'm sitting here and this is where I am and what I'm doing:
In this moment I am: trying to free up disc space on my computer without deleting the 7,000 pictures that I hold so dear, trying to change my cover photo-and failing, listening to the INCESSANT hammering in the flat below mine that has been ensuing consistently since August. Picture my nap time, or my "lay in bed with a gun to my head" time. It's one of the most annoying things-ever. Oh, and also listening to some lovely Olivia Morgan, worship leader at a church at home I attended.
And today I've realized a few things.
Well for starters I've recently moved to a bustling city-no more small rural town! I've always wanted to spend at least a little time in a city and here I am! A long, drawn out series of events has lead me here (& also the hand of God, obviously) and I couldn't be more content. No more hand washing laundry, no more cement floors, no more freezing nights, no more outdoor sinks for dish washing, no more tension and anxiety that I was feeling in my former residence. No more lack of purpose. I love love loved where I was before, but things changed. Everything has a season. So here I am in a city. A big one. Listening from my room the the screeching tires, honking horns, sporadic shouting, (& like I said, that horrid hammering).
I have an awesome roommate and another one who will be here soon once she returns from Nepal. I've been spending all my time with her and with another US fam that is six floors below. The husband and wife are just like older siblings- they don't act their age at all! Stephanie is expecting a baby with SIX WEEKS! And little three-year-old Hudson is going to be the best, wildest big brother ever. He's a handful himself, but his precious little smile and those chubby cheeks make it so hard to feel anything but joy when you're around him.
Another AWESOME thing about being here is that I get to go to the slum school twice a week when I thought that I wouldn't have a opportunity to go back. I'll have to upload some pictures for sure because these smiles and souls are just to adorable not to share! Every morning when I walk in I'm welcomed warmly by a thunderous "MORNING AUNTIE!" as bright, warm, smiling faces shine up at me. Anyone who has ever served in any way in an improvished area knows the smiles that I'm talking about. The smiles of ones so small who literally have nothing. Okay I lied; they have the numb of a pencil, a hole-y book bag, and rags for clothes. Their smiles radiate so brightly for those who have no physical possessions. The joy that they have is unfathomable. I love them so much. I would spend every day writing letters for them to trace or having them repeat "ORANGE-CIRCLE, PINK-RECTANGLE, WHITE-RHOMBUS" if I could. I sit on the floor and have up to three on me at a time shoving their workbooks in my face SO PROUD of their work as they try and catch my attention with their "AUNTIE, AUNTIE." As I leave the school each day and see them along the main road of the slum, it is hard to recognize them when they are out of their school uniform. Seeing them in the reality in which they live. But their smiles are just as bright as ever. They will always have a very special place in my heart.
[Let us just pause for one second. I just took a quick instagram/facebook break and proceeded to search the fridge for a little something to fill the itty-bitty open space in my belly. And then I saw it. Just sitting in the shelf, minding it's own business, but it knew I was coming for it. And did I ever. Squatting in front of the open fridge holding the glorious bottle. Flipped up that flip top and proceeded to squirt a blob of chocolate sauce into my hand...it's been so long. And then I did it 4 more times. Sorry Elisa if you're reading this! I couldn't help it! And I'm really not that sorry hehehe. Then I ate another banana. Additional side note: I've eaten almost 3 kilos of bananas in the past three days as well as 462 grams of crunchy peanut butter....It's gotten to the point where I've eaten so much that I can't even open my mouth or swallow. I'm holding down the fort over here don't worry.]
Anyways, back to the "substance." One thing that has been especially important to me in my time here has been journalling. I feel burdened to do it. I can't sleep if I don't. I have a fear that I'll forget details. I don't want to forget anything. Every second is important to me because before I know it, I'll be "home." So my first journal is almost done and every time I leave the flat I'm secretly poking around stands and stores looking for the perfect new journal, but I refuse to by one until I'm completely finished. It will be my reward. I want to remember Christmas here on the page where I pasted some of the marigolds that were thrown into the air amidst the celebration. I want to remember my first Hindu wedding on the page where I have the dried roses given to me by my first friends here. I'm the wary queen of sentimentally. I'm trying to not let it turn into hoarding, but I may not mind if it does. (jk I totally mind, but hopefully it won't go THAT far.) I just love every second I'm here and even the ones that are harder to love, I want to remember because it's all part of my growth and journey. And that's what adventure is.










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| Friends from home came to pay a visit! |
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| Made friendship bracelets with the ladies in the village :) |
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| New book bags all around! |
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| SNACK TIME |
oh and I'll be posting a video within the next few days :) and if anyone wants to give me a unique new format I would not be opposed :)
Also, this is the third time I've added to this post, BUT I have been reading a ton more since there are actually book stores here and I have a recommendation. The book
SOLD by Patricia McCormick. We visited a business called SariBari [saribari.com] where women rescued from sex-trafficing are employed and are given the opportunity to have a new life- a life full of Restoration. One lady who interns there told us that she has read
Sold and that it is what actually happens in the Indian sex-trafficing trade. It's one of the simplest and easiest books I've ever read, but it completely heart breaking. It's important to be aware of all that is going on around the world and it's crazy to know that it runs so rampant in the city I'm living in, which is the city where the book takes place.
Next up-
Nocturnes by Karuzo Ishiguro